this moment

{this moment} - Joining Soulemama's Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

this moment

{this moment} - Joining Soulemama's Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

rarely

i rarely drink alone. yesterday was a rare day. seriously. i've had a tough week....month... that's no excuse to drink, i know. i didn't really mean to. in my life i think i've initiated opening a bottle of wine 3 times. my husband, who has been uber supportive of my vegan choices for 19 years... now of my grassfed beef and...farm to table visions.. well you get the idea. well he got me this book for christmas: veggie burgers every which way. and well he was out and i was making one of these recipes while they might be giants were entertaining my kids. i was aiming for some sanity while also getting dinner cooked. it called for 1/4c of red wine. i usually just skip this part in recipes. but there was a bottle of wine on the counter. i figured ok i'll use it. i opened it. i remembered he told me to always taste it first. i did. it was so good. so i put 1/4c in the recipe and some in a wine glass. then some more. then even, some more... the veggie burgers came ok in one pan and mushy from the other. i still ate them. they were ok. but the wine was really good! and today is going well. better then the last week. we moved you see and my homebody boy is having trouble adjusting to this new home. he'll be ok. but in the meantime i think a little bit of wine is a good idea.

in the picture the burgers look just like the book! in real life...not so much...

happy happy merry merry

to you and yours,

enjoy. love. live in this moment of joy and beauty. peace to you all.

love,

tara

in november:::::on the 28th

he's 5 today

it seems so long ago he passed through me into this world

starting his journey and mine at the same instant

or was it yesterday

i have never been the same

neither has my sense of time

glimpses of seeing millennia in either direction

i give thanks to him

for guiding me to where love exists

purely

winds of change

i love the fall. i love all the seasons and as i grow older there is more in each one that i admire, they have become more equal in my loving of them. but the fall is more emotional to me, a little different.

we chose the fall to be married in, it's always felt like a time of new beginnings and transition to both of us. and every year when the breeze turns crisp with a hint of chill, we celebrate our togetherness as we journey through this life.

i became a mother in the fall. as the trees change i remember myself walking, walking, walking, hiking, walking, hiking.... endlessly waiting for him. it was the only time i was comfortable and so i just kept going. i walked through the guess date and then i walked for two more weeks. the day before my boy came to me i was on top of a mountain surrounded by a lake, bare trees, crisp air... willing him to join us here on earth.

halloween. it's my favorite holiday of all. i love the costumes, the making, the pretending. i love the connection to all souls past and present. 2 years ago my gram passed away on halloween. i was hiking with my 2 in the same spot i endlessly walked, waiting... pregnant, when she passed into spirt, transitioning our relationship into a different dimension.

and now on top of all the emotions that come with all of this, and the celebration of gratitude we prepare for next, we are moving. to a home we have dreamed of for years, lifetimes perhaps. after moving 12 times in my life i am excited at the prospect of moving somewhere we have longed to live and staying there, surrounded by earth and water and trees... it's right where we belong. i think. it's bittersweet. i am leaving the house both my children were born in. the way the light filters in reminds me of the moment we met. the place where i've lived the longest since i was a kid, the place my family came to be.

i've always liked lucky 13, i'm looking forward to it, this next direction that these fall winds are blowing us in.

this moment

{this moment} - Joining Soulemama's Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.